Letter challenge

Dear ex boyfriend, well….. Let’s just say that I do regret going out with you to be honest, I was too young to know what love was (still am tbh). At 14, I wasn’t the same person as I am now, and I’m not just saying that. I have changed in attitude, looks, the way that I think and analyze things and I have definitely grown up more and am now more aware of different things.

We have had the odd online chat, and I pretend to like you and be your friend, I even agreed on being friends like aagggeeesss ago but I’m gonna say it how it is, I hate you, I despise you, I’m actually scared and just the tiniest bit creeped out by you. I don’t like the way you act, I think you need to be responsible for your own actions and grow up a bit, especially as you are classified as an adult now. I hate the way you look, it’s really horrible, piercings, long hair, your clothes… seriously.

I won’t forget about us ever dating and nor will anyone else I know, I wish I could erase that period of time because you’re who everyone automatically thinks of when I say ‘my ex’ or something about sexual activity. I really regret losing my virginity to you, I was much too young and way under age. I think back and it makes me feel literally sick, I still can’t even accept the fact I did any of that, it makes me embarrassed and ashamed.

Even though I dislike you and would rather not make conversation with you ever again, I forgive you for all what you’ve done wrong. For ignoring me after we broke up and for spreading complete shit about me which made me look like a desperate whore, even a couple of my friends started to believe some of the lies.. until I had to tell them it was all a load of bullshit. Yes I forgive you, like I forgive everyone else, I don’t see a point in holding a grudge against you all my life and all the bad things that happened taught me a lesson, that I should never go out with someone like you and in the future think very carefully before doing things.

I said I forgive you but that still means I pretty much hate you, maybe if we ever met up and you started to talk to me, I would talk back and pretend that I didn’t hate you because I’m not that much of a bitch.

Ok, that’s all I need to say.

#letter challange