Letter challenge

Day 5) Letter to my dreams?! Day 6) Letter to a stranger

Dear Dreams, you can be really fucked up sometimes, usually I can’t tell that I’m dreaming, I don’t know why because none of my dreams are normal and could ever be real life…. a few days ago I had very emotional dreams, I think my emotions in real life came out in my dreams and I just had a lot going round in my head, I dreamt about having insane rage at people and just being upset and crying all the time :S…. the last two nights have been normal though, even though I can’t remember what they were about I know that they weren’t bad.

And I would like if I kinda stopped dreaming about meeting Demi because it’s upsetting waking up knowing that I haven’t met her and it’s just surreal, so yeah.

Sometimes I don’t even like or enjoy dreams and to be honest, I’d rather just have no dreams.

Why do we even have dreams?! They’re so strange, it’s like little scenarios going around in your head, sometimes dreams are based on things you’ve seen/said/heard that day or sometimes they are completely random. Some are completely fucked up and others can be amazing. What even is the point of them?? Did cavemen have them? Were they so vivid?… probably not!

Dear Stranger, hi! Well I’d like you to know that I’m a friendly person, I’m obsessed with Tumblr and Twitter, I am a Lovatic. I go to school, currently in year 11 but break up in 12 weeks for good! I like sports and I could not live without working out because it feels good after and it releases endorphins which make you happy :) My ultimate goal in life is to move to either Texas or California when I’ve finished university and have scooped some money together, seriously sometimes I can’t stand Britain.

I would also like if you didn’t judge what you see, people can’t change what they look like and never criticize others or judge them just on their appearance, I would also like if when I go places you don’t look at me, I get really nervous of people….. especially where I live, I seriously can’t go out alone. I haven’t been out alone in god knows how long.

When, (well if) you first get to know me I will be fairly shy, I won’t know what to say and the situation might be a bit awkward…. Once I’ve known you for a couple of months I will start saying more and being more confident. Usually I reflect on people, say, if someone was rude to me I would not bother talking to them or would be blunt with them, if someone didn’t ever talk to me or start up a conversation I would either try with them first and if they were still like it I’d give up and not bother talking to them either, however if you are a fairly confident person and are nice, then I will hold a decent conversation with you and get to know you.

Even with people I know very well and have known them for ages, I don’t show my emotions to people, I’ve learnt to not trust anyone, I’m afraid of being judged and missunderstood/not being taken seriously.. I find it hard to open up to people because I don’t ever like to show people that I’m weak.

Anyways, all in all.. I’ll appear happy and talkative when in social situations and I always try to better myself, I want, one day to marry Nick Jonas, because he’s only like 3 years older than me :P but I know it’ll never happen…

Yours Faithfully, Emily :) xox

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